Most people will never share their truth in hopes that the true them will not be exposed. Me on the other hand, I will freely testify because I’m totally free from who I used to be.
I used to be a people pleaser. After a while, I just got tired of being rejected so I would do whatever to fit in, from work, to school, church etc. The desire to please others had gotten so bad, that I hated to be alone because all the emotions and feelings of rejection would always come right back! I just covered them up and kept on pushing through life!
God sent me many signs to become free, but I ignored Him. To be honest, being free was so unknown I didn’t know I could adjust to being free. Then one day, God allowed me to see how fake I was. Whew!!!! Boy was that eye opening! I was sick to my stomach.
Truthfully, He said, “Olea, when you refuse to live in the place that I’ve called you to, you are fake!” “You are living in falsehood, completely unauthentic.” I was smiling on the outside, but in broken pieces on the inside, crushed.
Although I was forced to look at myself for exactly who I was, it was the best thing I could have experienced. (As I’m typing I’m literally crying!) I have seen all the ugliness that lived in my heart from rejection, and I wanted it out.
As God has taken me on this journey and pulled
back layers of mess, I felt such a weight lifted off my shoulders. I felt the freedom to be and do exactly what my father said. I didn’t have to wait for men to give me what my Abba had already given me when He formed me in my mother’s womb; He gave me his stamp of approval. Marked, sealed and destined to build up his Kingdom. Today I can truthfully and authenticity declare that I AM A SERVANT OF CHRIST! 💕🙌🏽 What a lifted weight!!!! I have sought to please my fathers in ways I could of never imagined! Take heed to wisdom, but obey and please God! 🙌🏽🙏🏾💕
Sincerely,
Your favorite Sis
